Elder Clark of the 70 came to
visit the mission this past week and he said something that I am now
applying to this situation: "This is not an event, this is a journey."
Packing your bags and leaving your mission is not an event, it's a
journey. It's a journey that certainly has a lot of ups, downs,
mood-swings, crying, anxiousness, you name it. Last night was pretty
rough.
From 7-9PM
we had the closing shift in West Gate. It was snowing a lot so Temple
Square was void of all forms of life. There was nobody walking around!
So, we decided to turn off the lights (so we could see outside the big
windows) and just watch the snow fall. And I cried. Mostly because a few
hours earlier I had my departing interview with President, which left
me feeling so sad and so empty to be leaving my mission. To be honest,
last night and this early morning, I was pretty depressed. I just sat at
my desk with my hymnbook and sang hymns because I didn't know what else
to do with myself. But don't worry, I'm not depressed anymore.
This
morning we all met in the big chapel in the Salt Lake Temple and we
heard from the Temple President and his wife. Following that meeting we
went in and did a session. I spent the session with Sister Ferguson from
Arizona, and we shared a lot of thoughts with each other and it turned
out to be a really enriching learning experience. As we left the
Celestial room at the end, I turned to her and asked her if she wanted
to go explore a bit of the Temple. Haha(: So.... instead of going
downstairs we turned and walked down the hall and opened the door and
just walked into the rooms that used to be the apartment Lorenzo Snow
lived in! Don't worry, we weren't sneaking around disobediently! The
Salt Lake City Temple workers let the Temple Square sisters wander
around anywhere in the temple for the most part so they were around but
they don't every say anything to us except for, "Hi Sisters!" hehe(: So I
took her down some halls that lead to where the front doors are, and
then we went down the spiral staircase and into another Sealing room. It
was BEAUTIFUL! But yes anyways, so we explored a little bit and then we
went back to prepare for pictures outside.
We
all had our picture taken with President and Sister Poulsen in front of
the Temple and then we all headed to Tucanos for lunch! YUM! (: We had a
good meal and President had all of us share with each other what are
plans are after the mission. After the meal we all came back to the
square and checked out with Elder and Sister Moore (the mission
secretaries). And yes...now it's over. We have pday the rest of the day
so after this I will go home and...pack...and...do laundry...yes....
My
last week as a missionary was full of miracles. We found twice as many
new investigators as we have found the entire transfer... of course
right before I leave haha(: We also had a miracle baptism take place,
which was a neat experience for the last week of the mission. Missionary
work-wise, it was just a very very successful week...probably one of
the most successful weeks on my mission. And for that I am grateful.
I
don't know what it's like to be a returned missionary yet, but I do
know that I will never regret the decision I made to serve. Many young
men and women will grow up in the church and wonder if they should serve
a mission. Some will have doubts, some will feel defiant because of
"rules" and "restrictions". But there are a few things they have to
understand if they want to be happy in life:
"We are not obedient because we are blind, we are obedient because we can see." -Boyd K. Packer
"Jesus
responded, (and here again I acknowledge my non-scriptural
elaboration)...What I need are disciples - and I need them forever. I
need someone to feed my sheep and save my lambs. I need someone to
preach my gospel and defend my faith. I need someone who loves me,
truly, truly, loves me, and loves what our Father in Heaven has
commissioned me to do." -Jeffrey R. Holland
And
one more thing; the work is going forward. The gospel is going forward
whether young men and women decide to serve a mission or not - whether
members of the church choose to share this message or not. There is no
person on this earth who can stop the work from going forward throughout
the entire world; and I know I can say that I have seen it spread
across the entire world for the last 18 months of my life. The world is
being prepared for the day that Christ comes again, this is happening
with or without you. So, are you going to be a part of it? Or are you
going to sit on the fence, watch it go by? And then you'll be there,
still sitting on the fence. Still waiting for someone to come drag you
along with the parade. But nobody is going to force you to do the Lord's
work. Because He is already doing it himself. It's your choice, all to
gain, none to loose.
I'm eternally grateful
and honored that the Lord would allow me to be a missionary for Him. He
owes me nothing because He has already given me everything. And the work
isn't over. Christ hasn't come. This life is not an event, it's a
journey.
I love you family, and I look forward
to seeing you. Forgive me if I am an emotional journey for the first 24
hours I will try to keep my emotions at a sensible level. (: Travel safe
because there is snow all over SLC. See you in the morning!
Sister Davis
After the temple with Sister Poulsen and President Poulsen. They are a
perfect example of many things, but what has impressed me the most is
their example of a righteous marriage. I want to be just like them
someday. (:
